The Female Flaw... A Submission Condition

Sometimes I think of women as such sad creatures. Not that we don’t have the ability to be successful and independent, it just seems anytime a woman gets the opportunity to be with a man whether he is worthy of her or not, she will throw away everything she is for him. I am not immune to this female flaw. Better yet we as women will allow ourselves to be jerked around or lead of by a man for months before we inevitable ask the age old deal breaking question, “what are we?”  If you even need to destroy a relationship whether it seemed healthy or not just go ahead and corner a man and ask him questions on the status of your courtship. More times than not the man will react with a slew of textbook lines designed to confuse you and protect himself.  Once the conversation is over you will be left with you head spinning and your eyes leaking.  It’s only once you’ve calmed down and really analyzed everything he “actually” said will you know you’ve been duped. So here I’ve compiled a faux conversation between a man and a woman in which the man uses his many lines and tricks to try and avoid intimacy and honesty.

WHAT SHE SAYS

So I don’t want to seem impatient and I’m kind of afraid of the answer but I just would really like to know where we stand. Know firstly that even though I’ve only known you for a few months I do really like you. And it’s ok if you don’t feel the same way, but I need to know if you don’t because I don’t want to invest my time in liking you if it’s not returned.  I’m not trying to pin you down or ask for any commitments at all. Really I’m not looking to be your girlfriend, I just want to know if you feel anything for me beyond friendship.  I like being around you and I’ve been having a lot of fun lately.  I don’t know where this is going so hopefully with your help we can figure things out.

WHAT SHE MEANS

Oh Jesus Christ I don’t want to scare you away. Men are so easy to scare away. I’m not trying to cage you in because I know you’ll freak out and run away. You bastards are so skittish. It’s not like I’ve picked out our children’s names yet…I just mentioned that I thought Aden was a lovely name for a boy if I was to ever have one. I just like you and I want to be able to say it. I really hope you like me back, but if not it’s ok, I’ll be fine. I better be fine. Shit I’m going to start balling if you don’t like me back.  I just need to get over this if it’s not going anywhere. I don’t need to be your girlfriend, I just really like the attention and making out with you. Oh God am I going to hell just for thinking this? I’m not a slut am I? God don’t let my big mouth screw this up.

WHAT HE SAYS

Aww look at how nervous you are, it’s so cute.  I guess I kind of already knew you liked me, you’re not really that hard to read. It’s sweet though not trying to decode all those hidden signals and what not. It’s comforting to know you’re such a honest safe kind of gal.  Sorry to say I don’t really know how I feel right now. I think you’re a really great girl. You’re cute and fun to be around but I just don’t want to be dating anyone right now.  You see I’m still really jaded from my last relationship and I’m too screwed up to date a nice girl like you. Really I think we’re just really different people and want completely different things out of life.  I didn’t do anything to lead you on though. I treat you no differently than I treat any of my other friends. I’m a little upset you would even suggest such a thing.  It’s good that you had the courage to open up to me about this though. I’m really proud of you. 

WHAT HE MEANS

Oh god, this again. I mean I knew you liked me. I kind of made you like me. I mean I like the attention, who wouldn’t. You’re like so pathetically into me. I must be a pretty awesome guy if it’s this easy to make a girl like you. I just don’t have the balls to tell you I changed my mind and don’t like you anymore.  I just want to kind of fuck around. I’m young and want to pursue multiple girls at once.  You’re really reliable and safe so if I wanted a girlfriend to take care of me I‘d definitely pick you. I’m also still in love with my ex. Not that that stopped me from trying to get with you. You’re just kind of naive, and young, and not a slut so I don’t want to work that hard to get you to sleep with me.  I can tell this is going to get messy and you’re going to get emotional. Man I’m hungry. I wonder how long you’re going to cry about this for. When does Boston Market close? I want a sammich. MMMM sammich.  

WHAT SHE SAYS

Oh wow ok. Well fist of all I said I wasn’t trying to date you.  But I am kind of upset and feel sort of used. I’m really confused because your actions and your words have really contradicted themselves. You came over to my house on multiple occasion to watch movies and stayed the night. You laid in my bed with me. You flirted with me, tickled me, cuddled with me, and kissed me. I thought that meant you liked me. You talked to me all the time, every day for weeks actually. It really seemed like you liked me. Do you kiss all your friends?

WHAT SHE MEANS

What the fuck man? I did not say that I wanted to date you. I don’t even like you that much. All you do is talk about yourself. You initiated things with me. You came over and got in bed with me. You kissed me. You tried me on like a pair of jeans over and over again to see how I looked on you. You can’t return jeans you’ve worn multiple times after 90 days. You smug mother fucker you think I’m sad and in love with you. I’m just confused as to why you decided to mess with me if you knew I liked you, but you didn’t like me back. You’re not even listening are you? Can you give me a straight answer for anything? Shit now I’m crying. I hate this shit. This keeps happening to me.

WHAT HE SAYS

I’m sorry you’re so upset that I won’t date you. Please don’t cry, I care about you too much to watch you cry. It’s ok that you just got your wires crossed. You’re a really nice girl. But we were just friends. And honestly, I have kissed a lot of my friends.  I didn’t think It was that big of a deal.  I didn’t think you’d take all this so seriously. To me a kiss is just a kiss. And I was really out of it that night. 

WHAT HE MEANS

Wow you really want to be my girlfriend. Stop getting so upset though, it’s freaking me out.  Seriously stop crying. I was drunk and wanted to fool around. I thought it was a good idea at the time. I didn’t know you were so sensitive. Hey don’t go telling people about the cuddling. Can we wrap this up now? It’s sammich time. 

WHAT SHE SAYS

You were really out of it? Meaning you were drunk and are now using alcohol as an excuse? If you were so drunk why did it take you two hours of ticking and hair touching to make a real move? You seemed kind of too sweet and shy to be out of it. It hurts my feelings that I didn’t mean anything to you. I’m really not the type of girl to cuddle and be cutesy with someone. And I’m not the type of girl who kisses someone that I don’t like.

WHAT SHE MEANS

Look at you back peddling. What a pussy.  I can’t believe I cuddled with you. I’m nauseous 

WHAT HE SAYS

I’m not using alcohol as an excuse. I was just really tired that night. I’m pretty pissed you think I used alcohol as an excuse. This isn’t going anywhere. 

WHAT HE MEANT

Psycho bitch. 

WHAT SHE SAYS

You kissed me because you were tired? Really? Whatever, fine. I’ll leave you alone. This was nothing and is nothing. I made it all up. I’m just sad things didn’t work out. I’m a really great person and I think you’re really going to regret missing out on me.

WHAT SHE MEANT

Coward.

WHAT HE SAYS

I know you’re a great person. You’re too good for me. You’re going to find a guy who really deserves you one day, I know it. Just put your feelers out. It’s good that you opened up and put yourself out there. You’re really going to learn and grow from all this. I’m just in a really weird place right now. I’m afraid of the future. I’m just trying to figure out what I want from life.  I hope we can still be friends. I remember when I was your age I…..

WHAT HE MEANS

Bitch I want a sammich soooooooooooooo bad. Shut up. Stop crying. 

WHAT SHE SAYS

Um I don’t really think you’re advice makes sense to me right now. It just kind of sounds like pity. I just wanted to understand what we were. And now I know we’re nothing. So I’m going to go wash my hair or something. K?

WHAT SHE MEANS

Do you think I’m buying any of this shit? God this is pathetic. Why did I even cry? Am I getting my period? I’m going to get so drunk tomorrow. Whatever. My head is spinning from this.

WHAT HE SAYS

I’ve just been so hurt so many times. I can’t handle it again. And I don’t want to hurt you. We’re going to be ok right? You’re not mad at me are you?

WHAT HE MEANS

The sound of my voice is so soothing. Why does she look so pissed. I thought she likes listening to me? She should go home and listen to some Jack Johnson. It’ll calm her right down. I wonder if we’re going to make out again? Is she buying this? 

WHAT SHE SAYS

Whatever. Goodnight.

WHAT SHE MEANS

What the hell was that?

WHAT HE SAYS

It’s just that my ex and I were so perfect for each other and now I’m so confused about everything. My whole world is all crumbly without her. Oh um Goodnight.

WHAT HE MEANS

My ex loved sammiches and Jack Johnson.  

What have we learned from this? Well basically nothing. Men are evil and self absorbed. They’re always hungry and don’t listen. We didn’t have to get our hearts trampled on to learn this. And yet we allow ourselves to make the same mistakes over and over again with the same kinds of guys. It’s okay ladies, you’re not alone. Hopefully one day we’ll be able to avoid such horrific misadventures in (not)dating. If I can give you or myself any advice I’d say be weary of all men. Don’t trust them and don’t expect them to be honest with you. Tricky bastards.